When I am dead

Yesterday I found
myself lying on floor
With the white cloth on
Surrounded by lots of people
around me
do not know
for what
to celebrate my death
or to cry for it

Are they singing
the sad song for me
whatever they doing
I can't hear
& in fact I don't care
Would someone be sad I know
I really doubt

But my eyes were searching
some one to whom
I wanna say
When I am dead my dearest
Please don't sing a
sad song for me
Neither plant a rose
at my head
just keep it with you
for you will remember me
always
I know I couldn't get
place in your heart
when I was alive
But now I want a small place
in your memories
Nor do cry for me

I wanna say
When I am dead my dearest
Please keep those tears alive
and just remember me some time
which you didn't
I know when I was alive
I know it was a waste
when I was alive

But just want to say
Please give some value
to my death
It should not be
as meaningless
as waste
as lonely
as tired
as thirsty
as was my life

Please don't sing a sad song when I am dead

Do not plant cypress tree either
Just place some green grass
The showers
and dewdrops will keep it wet
it wilts
I think you forgot
it is green
I think you remember
though not missing me
Remembering is a gift
for me
I could not get
when alive

I shall not see you
shall not feel you
shall not I touch you
but I shall not
miss this all
I shall not see the stars
but I will not
miss them too
as they were dull for me
I shall not hear the nightingale
whom would I miss
when she used to cry in pain
and used to give me a company
when I was sad
when I used to
think of you
miss you
shed tears for you
I shall miss the nights
the dark nights
I spent
sleepless
restless
dreamless
just thinking of you

I just wanna say
that my dearest
Please don't sing a sad song when I am dead